My mumbling...

Dear nikki...
Aku rasa setiap kehidupan boleh diceritakan dlm bentuk novel...ada yg best baca...ada yg tebal meleret....lately aku dok rasa boring tahap infiniti...sebab tu terfikir menda ni semua.Aku rasa kalau life aku di resemblekan dlm bentuk novel sure takdak org nak beli...Especially bila oncall aku 'cool 'last week.As if no happening in my life.Maybe dah terbiasa call yg busy.On top of that tak rasa minat nak shopping...cuma lapaq memanjang...and my fav tv series lost.Thats all.
Rumah pon tak terkemas dan baju tak berbasuh...Since balik dari kursus kat PD...Oncall...and at last bila reach weekend yg tak oncall...perfect time to do all that ....aku balik kl pulak..Aku balik sorang sebab kareshi bz sangat.Kemas rumah sikit2 je sebelum balik,asal kareshi boleh sambung hidop dlm rumah tu...hehe...Dan bila aku balik kerja pun makin bertambah.Balik dari kl...isnin balik kerja aku gi locum...selasa oncall,rabu locum...So hari ni lah hari paling afdal bayaq utang semua tu.....

Hari ni aku ambil pm off.Qada yg minggu lepas tak terambil.Only this week all 7 of us are here.Last week ,only 3 left and it was reeeealy busy.So aku ada masa utk siapkan laporan hari bersama pelanggan dan mobile team discussion bla2...Tensenla nikki...kononnya akula incharge dan bagi arahan org bawah...hampeh semua buat kerja macam lepas batuk kat tangga.Suruh buat buku ,still tulis atas kertas...laporan tak complete...ada yg tak datang.Last2 aku yg pi sana pi sini buatkan laporan yg boss bising dlm meeting tu.Dan bila tunjukkan kat dia takla dia teliti sangat tgk benda tu...kecoh ja lebih nikki.Sigh...Then i got the news...arghhh...geram.Ada nak suruh aku present tentang satu kajian ni....Udahla nama aku dimasukkan dlm kajian tu....tapi aku tak terlibat sgt..org lain buat tapi tiba2 nak soh aku.I dont mind presenting it ,if...only if i was involved from the beginning....or at least i was informed about the progress...inila senario kat sini nikki...doctors do clinical work all the time ..fine by me...aku memang enjoy that.Tapi bila suruh terlibat dlm management...buatla betul2....Ini surat tak dapat..meeting tak panggil tiba2 suruh buat tu buat ni...at the same time...oncall la...klinikla......Than,...aku terpikirla nikki...awatla nak tensen...aku tension sebab i try to impress my boss...Im doing all those work just because she asked me to do...just for her...sebab tuhla aku tak puas hati ...mungkin sebab aku tak impresskan dia macam yg aku nak....
Nikki...from now on....kita kerja for our own sake ek nikki...im doing it because thats my work...Apart from clinical work this is my chance to learn management stuff...learning about how to handle staff...to handle a team...to handle meeting...to do a research...Tapi nikki..what ever it is..i enjoy seeing my patient most.Especially patient yg tua sangat2....they are so cute...macam baby.....you might be suprise to hear what they answer you.!

Ashita mata kuru! gambaruzoh.....!