Trauma....

Wello nikki...
....End of jun was very tiring and hectic for me...i havent done locum for quite sometime.Even though yoh just came back from ukraine and i wanted to spend time making lawak bodoh with her...i hardly can find time to go back.The last time i was in gombak was when celebrating abang's birthday...itupun just transit for a while...i missed my room and the almari so much..

.....Since last kursus ISO...im already tensed up...Syafiqah pun keep calling me...asking what im doing...Aku asyik ckp..ibu kerja..sigh...My weekends always... either im oncall...or buat tution syafiqah..or balik gombak...thats it...and thats all.....Anyway...nikki...this few weeks was a trauma weeks to me...aku kena menghadapi dua weekend call berturut2...satu pon dah cukup exhausting....but i have no choice sebab kuota dan aturan kursus.And so it went...

Lepas weekend yg aku citer kat nikki last week aku terpaksa siapkan ceramah utk breastfeeding talk.Dahla short notice..2 sessi...plus...aku mana ada exposure pasal breastfeeding sgt..setakat teori jer..nak kasik ceramah kat staffnurses yg dah anak lima enam...Biar betul..so aku risau lah sikit...Aku mintak excuse kat member bagila aku buat preparation ptg tu...sebab kalau aku dok kat kecemasan..alamat tak siaplah..patient tak putus2..mana dengan ward round lagi...dengan weekend call lagi...kat rumah pon cukup2 time tuk tido je....Ok lah fine..diorang kasi...So petang tu after lunch ...tgh jalan kat koridor dgr staffnurse jerit..."drrrrr sitiiiiii..."...kitorang toleh...wah cayalah stafnurse nih...aku ingat dia soh aku review results...sampai je tgk ada patient biruuuu......dah cam tak bernyawa.......
Aku dpt cam dgn segera patient tu...O ' ooo...patient baru masuk pagi tadi...AECOAD..,.young patient somemore,......unfrequent attack.,.he is not supposed to colapse....Dia cuma on nebuliser jeeee!....My god..aku terus jerit...I want a male attendant here!....Staffnurse prepare intubation.!..aku jerit suara jantan keluaq..Mana tak, semua berterabur...nurses boleh panik..at least they can bagg the patient first...and then...katil pulak cot bed..camna nak intubate...Di pendekkan cerita burn petang aku tu me'recuss' patient tu...Aku stay back sampai pkol 6.30 trying to finish my topic...lepas punch kad...lalulah pulak depan wad tadi....alahai...ternampak muka kawan aku cam nak nangis tengah bagging another patient colapsed...She just came back from GH..escort patient tadi..now dia kena recuss sorang lagi.Aku tak sampai hati nak balik...So sekali lagi repeating....CPR...exactly kat katil yg sama but different patient.Malam tuh aku terpaksa siapkan topic aku secara emergency nikki....


Luckily my talk went out smoothly...asalkan siap aku dah lega...now i can concentrate with my lefT over calls....Aku try discharge patient sebanyak mungkin....so that during weekend aku tak teruk sgt buat round.Tapi weekend nih ramai gila patient kat wad...nothing i can do anymore....Aku 'berjoget lambak ' jugak hari jumaat tuh...dari pukul 7 malam sampai pukul 12 mlm.Ada member aku ajak dinner kat luar....aku kata pi dulu...dia orderkan dulu...tapi kes tak putus2....tak dpt keluar dinner...last2 dia panggil hubby dia makan dgn dia.I have to call aisyah to come sebab ada kes accident that need to send to GH.Dia datang...tapi dia lagi teruk...dari malam jumaat tuh sampai ke isnin pagi dia tak sempat balik rumah..kitorang keep calling...bzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....Habis oncall jumaat. buat round pagi sabtu,..aishah take over oncall sabtu...6petang aishah call aku balik dia kena escort kes...penat semalam lom ilang laie...PKol 10 30 malambaru balik...Ahad esoknya aku lak oncall......aku kena gak gi wedding member aku jap ..mualaf...to give support....aishah cover lah sejam lebey...then dia call.....ada kes fetal distress...aku rushing nak balik...dia kata dia escort dulu...ambulance baru nak bergerak baby dah bersalin depan wad....So dia tak jadi escort.Aku soh dia balik tido...sementara boleh...dia gi wedding sebelum balik tido..tak sempat balik tido aku kena panggil dia balik...sebab ada kes kena escort lagi.Sian dia....so aishah nak escort..dia tanak stay hospital..dia kata mind dia cannot working anymore ...dah tak tido 2 hari...Aku kata ok la...Nasib baik utk dia la...sepanjang dia pegi sana sampai balik eccident tak putus2...kes melambak2...sampaila dia balik tak setlle.Dah nak dekat pkol 9 malam baru things calm down.Kitorang ramai2 berhenti makan..aku ngan asihah share belanja pizza for them...sedekah kat orang yg tolong selamatkan org sakit ni musti banyak pahala...mudah2an...Kitorang lak dapatla durian ..org kasik..kuning gila..sedap sangat makan durian tengah stressnih nikki...Waktuh penat sangat macam ni nikki...you try give me any bad/sad /happy news....i cant feel a thing....its like im numb....tuh yg org kata hati doktor keras tuh...sebab dah kematu....


And then nikki...aishah pon balik...Aku kena la sambung tgk case...sedaq2 dah pkol 1030...aku ada la mention to one of my staffnurse to.."wah patutla saya rasa penat...belum mandi lagi ni..nak mandila..."Dan aku pon mandila....Tgh mandi tu aku cam nampak kelibat itam kat atas bilik air tau nikki...aku tgk betui2..takde..aku ingat aku imagining thingsla....Pastuh sambung la mandi sambil jeling2 gak tgk atas tuh...Lepas tu nikki tgk lagi sekali....Ada kepala oranggg!!!!!...ieeerrkkk...berderau darah aku...tapi cepat2 kuat semangat sergah org tu...keluar bilik air...tepon MA kat depan...MA tu gi kejar tapi mamat tuh dah lari...Menggeletar tangan aku......sampai arini pon dok trauma lagi nikki....Citer kat kareshi..abis aku kena leter..dia kata aku sosial sangat..sembang dengan lelakila..tak pakai tudung labuhla...iskk...aku jugak yang kena...Aku harap orang yg mengintai tu tak lama lagi dia datang kecemasan sebab accident...harap2 dia cedera prah kat kaki....Jahat ke aku kalau sumpah gitu nikki?